Gosh...  Where have I been?  It's been so crazy around here.  So much has happened with in the last little bit.  As some of you know my mom is in the hospital.  She had a total knee replacement a couple of days ago and she came through just fine.   I'm kinda bummed she won't be home for Thanksgiving but I'm happy she made it through surgery just fine.  Now it's rehabilitation and she won't be home for a while.  Also my uncle had a heart attack a couple of days ago and he has major blockage in the 3 main arteries and has to under go triple by-pass surgery.  He was here in town then they sent him to Knoxville and now he is in Nashville.  I wish I knew more about the situation but I'm clueless.  Please if you pray please pray for my family.  Thank you.

Why is it when things like this happen it's always around the holidays?  Well, it seems like that with my family.  It's not the same when the "family" is not together for the holidays.  Usually we have a big shin dig with all the huge family we have but this year we are not getting together.  I feel lost when we are not together.  Also, since we lost mamaw and papaw it's never really been the same since then and just keeps getting worse every year.  We used to be so close knit and now we are all unraveling.  It seems like all the cousins should pick up the pieces and run with it but we are not close like the "brother and sisters."  I mean we are close but so distant because we have our own lives and times are changing so fast.

I was so excited the other day!!  I got to spend most of the day with my brother.  It was more exciting for me than it was for him.  I miss being close with him.  He used to tell me everything and now it's only bits and pieces.  But I cherished each moment we were together.  He had me laughing all day - he is so funny.

I went to the park the other day to take pictures and well none worth posting...  Tried to take pictures of the moon tonight and epic fail...........  But that is pretty much it in a nut shell - maybe?  I can't remember any thing else at this moment - LOL

If I don't come back before Thanksgiving - I wish every one a wonderful, beautiful, Happy Thanksgiving!!!!!!!
 
I can't believe it's November 10 already.  Each day getting closer and closer to Thanksgiving and Christmas.  Where has this year gone to?  Seems like only yesterday the ball was dropping and bringing in a new year. 

This year has been a tough one for us.  The economy is kicking our butts pretty hard.  Hopefully next year will be better but I don't want to sit here and wish for next year to get here since it's already flying bye.

Hope everyone has a wonderful Thursday!!


 
Today is a new day.  Feeling a little better today.  I'm up early with the only sounds of the heater kicking on, the refrigerator humming and the sound of my typing.  Took pictures of my doggie yesterday and here is one I like.

Well, I hope all has a wonderful Saturday!!
 
Oh this is awful!!  I have really neglected my blog...  I broke my camera a couple of days before Halloween and luckily I was able to get it fixed  thanks to my hubby. 

Right now I have no desire to do anything.  I'm in a slump.  I feel as if I'm locked in a cage and all I see is darkness. 

I do the same thing - day in and day out.  I'm bored.  I'm bored with life...  I need to get out of this routine but there is no way out. 

The depression is even deeper.  I have no ump.  I have no energy.  I have no motivation....  Nothing....

I feel as if I'm going crazy.  My mind plays tricks on me.  My brain races with thoughts.  My heart is heavy.

I don't even know who I am any more?